yeaterday at work was fucking stressful..

my minf was'nt totally focused on my work firstly,

did not have enough sleep,

then played soccer in the morning..then

straight to work,

at work..there even more problems..

i knw SHE is gonna read..so i jus wanna tell U..

i jus dont knw wat did i do to make u to avoid me..

yes avoid me...

yes..u knw dat i got a crush on u..so wat!

i didnt force u to have a relationship wif me wat..

i jus want us to be frens..dats all..

is tt too much to ask..

if really wanna avoid me..and u jus hate me that much..

last time i thought that u were the type of person whom i can tell u bout my probs..

cause when i got to knw u..

our relationship probs..were similar..

haiz..i jus dont knw wat more to say to u..

i have let it out all my feelings on my blog..

so its up to u...

bye!

This past few days has been fucking shit i tell ya..

if u dont want me to text u or anitink jus tell me la...

dont jus keep quiet..

i hate it when girls do that..

it doesnt meAN THAT I HAte u..but jus tink for a moment..

wat do u feel when u sent ten text out to that person..

and that person didnt even reply one of ur text msg...

im trying to be patient but i tink my patience has a limit too..

im nt trying to force on a relationship or anitink..

i jus wanna be frens..thats all..

argh!!!!too much inside my mind...GOODBYE!

shahrill

hmm..yesterday was great day for me..hahaha

got to change shift wif my fren for a morning shift..

was jus too lazy to do closin..

also beacuase supposely i had a gathering but did'nt go cause

my parent could not make it..
so planned wif miss sarah to treat her..
haha..she is a very fickled minded person sumtimes..
cause ask i her where she want to eat..

she will always ans.."don't knw..anywhere la.."

haha..sorry ehk sarah i mengumpat psl u skit je..haha

but the worse has yet to come..

hahah

everybody tinks dat its was a date..haha

everybody meaning staff of swensen and al,ryn

and everybody who knew dat i was treating her..

come on!its was jus a treat..not a date..right sarah?

i knw she will agree wif me..haha

but also while waiting for sarah..met up wif my bros..

they were hanging out at vivo on a tuesday for whoknowsWat they there for..

haha..

eating at BREEKS cafe was ok..

i still prefer secret recipe though..haha

she had fish&chips and i had pasta wif blacken fish..

it was nice..

dats all guys,

i knw y..but i jus have a feeling

a feeling dat,

her heart may still be wif dat guy ,

so i dont knw whether i shud ask abt her feelings..

haiz..but i really miss her though..

i dont knw y..but i really do..

maybe because i have not cntact wif her this few days..

i knw she jus treat me like a fren..

so like i said..

i jus have to go wif the flow..haahaha..

jus now went to for interview with al and ryn at moley work place

al treated me and ryn at secret recipe..

the food was nice..and CHEAP

haha..

but at the end of the day i decided maybe rite now..i shud not change my job

cause i lovin it..hahaha..jus little bit though cause the management still sucks..

big time!

ok..dats all..

signing off

hahaahahahaizZZZ....

yesterdae didnt get to blog cause the damn blog was down..

work yesterday was totally really super diduper chill..

cause it was like my whole outlet went to war(meaning there was almost nobody)

but the beswt thing was when my manager was impress wif me when i started work really early..

supposed to start at 6 but came at 430 jus for briefing and started work at 530pm..

hahaha..kembang sak aku..tapi skit jek ah..hahaha

hmm..im now in a little dilemma..

she didnt make it wif dat guy cause of some prob..

she still doesnt understnd me cause she still tinks im jus fren..

well i'll tell u sumtink then..i wan to be there wif u whenever u nid me..

i knw ur heart is still wif tt guy..

everyone says dat..

u are trying to be strong but i can jus see in yur eyes tt u are really heartbroken

and i hate to see tt..

and im also angry wif tt guy..u knw..

to tell u the truth,

i jus feel there sumtink not rite bout tt guy..

well..i've let it out already..

ok guys dats all for todae..

signing off

hahaha..haiz..wat a day.

jus gt bck from the outing..woohoo..ate alot..

ahaha..ketok duet company rabak..

but during the outing..sumtink happen,

i dont wan to write it down cause its too personal..

my apologies to that person..

i didnt mean to make it a big thing..

i was helpless cause they were asking me alot of question..

haiz..hope u understnd..

i dont want us to fight jus cause of this..i'll solve it ok..i promise..

sorry..

haiz..prob after prob..

but i jus learn sumtink from one of my staff..

he said to me that no matter wat there will be problems..

so he said that we shud take it in a positive way and throw away they negative thoughts..

that way,we will learn new thing easier..u hav my respect bro..

haiz..now i really need to tink bout my prob..

it may getting big..but im trying to make small..

belive me when i say i want to make it small..

NVM..i knw i'll figure it out..

aniways..gtg guys

signing off

this is me:
wanting to moveon but there sumting hampering me,
but at the same time i feel my heart has change,
so i dont knw which want to follow,
my instinct?
or my heart?
i knw her heart is still wif dat guy,
so i'll just keep quiet and wait,
maybe its jus not the rite time,
she is a great gal to be wif,
so really hope to be wif her,
even though i sumtimes do tink of my ex,
but tt will heal in time cause i've been through it already,
so enough of this "emo stuff",
TIME FOR SUM FUN..HAHAHAAH
going for an outing(having supper) later at around 11pm wif the staff of swensen..woohoo!!
yesterday was so fuck up wif that badak,dala aku nga sakit,
de lagi nk carik hal..kurangs btol..haiz..
maybe thats part of the working life..
well my mum is sick,so gtg guys

signing off
Shahrill aka SHOM JR.